IIRC this also happened in Insurgency. I seem to recall being fired upon while my character screamed “FUCK SHIT SHIT”, bullets wizzing by.

Great game prior to changing hands and being nuked. It filled a niche between ultratactical gameplay and Call of Duty intensity. Squad does this alittle but not in the same style.

EDIT: Proof here.

Could also put up:

• Massive collections of people are exploited in order to train various AI systems.
• Machine learning apps that create text or images from prompts are supposed to be supplementary but businesses are actively trying to replace their workers with this software.
• Machine learning image generation currently has diminishing returns for training as we pump exponentially more content into them.
• Machine learning text and image generated content self-poisons their generater’s sample pool, greatly diminishing the ability for these systems to learn from real world content.

There’s actually a much longer list if we expand to talking about other AI systems, like the robot systems we’re currently training to use in automatic warfare. There’s also the angle of these image and text generation systems being used for political manipulation and scams. There’s alot of terrible problems created from this tech.

As others have said, find a professional. It can take alot of tries before you find the right person, but it’s extremely helpful when you find the right person.

As someone with ADHD I also get anxiety with changes in my day-to-day events. My coping mechanism for a while has been coming up with practical contingency plans. That makes it so I at least have an idea of what to do and at what point there is nothing left to do. It’s helped me get through many situations.

As for your future and social problems, those likely need some personal analysis and personal change (professionals are meant to help with this). A lack of future is often not an actual lack, it’s usually a personal failure at seeing other potentials, seeing a new path to follow. It’s sometimes called learned helplessness and can be hard to deal with alone. Becoming antisocial (not wanting any human interaction) is also usually a difficult thing and is usually caused by a personal neuroticism. But we need purpose as humans, and we also need comradery quite often.

Thinking of yourself as a collection of habits can be helpful for this. You should be asking yourself what exactly makes you upset about about other people, and try to relate it to something about yourself.

You can’t change other people, but you can change how you react to other people. Quite often that requires a shift of perspective that acknowledges that you are a biased viewer enterpretting a limited view. Instead of “people talking about themselves are annoying” for example, “I am bothered by people when they talk about themselves” can be more useful. That way, you are talking about the emotional response you have to others rather than the perceived traits of others - your lense is now focusing on you instead of on others.

That’s all I’ve got. The path to being content is difficult, and I wish you luck.

Recommendations: if you have any technical aptitude, get a vice, pliers, wirecutters, nylon cord, and several yards of fastener wire from a local hardware store. That can solve a very large number of minor accessory problems with ingenuity. Old-school prototyping can ween you Off buying smaller “specialized” products.

Couldn’t boycott it for the moral reasons? Like, are you saying you’d still support the height of shitty companies destroying their industries if they just had good UI and better deals?

I jumped over to logseq. It takes some getting used to, but overall logseq is working fine overall.

This whole thing reads not like a codebase versus, but a traditional engineering approach (don’t act like you can patch this once you release it - get it done so it’s stable the first time) versus the more modern “move fast and break things” approach.